You Have Not Forsaken Me

I just haven't been listening to You.

This happens to me so often. I think I know what God means when He points something out to me, but I have no idea. Time and time again I struggle with trusting Him with my entire life, not just work here, school there; but with every aspect of my life, every day. When I trust Him, I able to see better what He wants from me (and for me).

One of my pastors said, "God's going to tell you what He's going to tell you, when He's going to tell you, and that's all He's going to tell you."

Patience is a real issue for me when it comes to what God wants. "Oh, He's showing me something, that must mean I have to do something about it right now." Most of the time it means He's indeed showing me something, but I have to wait in order to find out the answer.

That's always been difficult, to the point I walked away from Christ for a number of years because I got bored. It tore me apart, but Jesus was right there the entire time.

I hope for a day when I'm able to discern what God wants a little faster instead of focusing on my own agenda so much.