My singleness has been bothering me for a while now. I know I'm still young, and God has someone for me, but sometimes I just plain want a guy to talk to, to hug. All my guy friends are approachable, but I just feel like it's not right, somehow, me talking to them about things.
I felt super lonely today. The sermon was on depression, and last week's was on anxiety. (I go to a Bible study on Fridays.)
During worship I was able to get back to God and what He's about. I know He doesn't want me to be all mopey because I don't have a guy that I can talk to. I know He wants me to talk to Him. I have been, I just feel like I'm completely missing something (read: someone) in plain sight.
God will point him out to me, I know. It's extremely painful to wait.
Alienated. That's how I feel I'm being treated by guys. By guys I don't mean guys that are friends, I mean guys that could become more than friends....I know I'm trying too hard.
I should be trying to be the person that is going to attract people, by being godly. I guess I just don't know where to start. That's what gets me down.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Hi Emilie, I'm sorry that you're feeling so lonely and alienated. I hope that things will get better for you soon and that you will find the happiness you are seeking. Don't give up--it's out there waiting for you!
ReplyDeleteTake care,
Zoe